Normally I do this every year, but I think I have skipped one year, that is year 2014, couldn't find it anywhere, guess I have forgotten about it when I was in the midst of final exam last year around this time. So here it is, the summary of what happens in my life in the year of 2015 by month:
January:
First half of the month was dealing with my final exam. Local university timetable is like that, so that's why now also I'm in the midst of my finals, still have two more paper to go, and I have pretty much has screwed up the first three due to lack of preparation and my own laziness. Sigh. Anyway, semester break then begins and I spent most of the time chilling at home, run errands with my mom or anything relating to my Taiwan exchange. I also spent some days painting my house during this month.
February:
Arrived in Taipei at 10.05pm on the the first day of Chinese New Year, quite chasm that time, as I did not have the chance to celebrate with my mom's side family, couldn't be help, flight ticket has been bought and I console myself that there is Chinese New Year every year. Still, I think I have missed those moments in life and I could never get it back. Spent the next few days exploring Taipei and my university.
March, April, May, June:
Experience classes in NTU, of new friends made, of new places explored in Taiwan, of new things learned.
My biggest take in from my exchange is friends, I really love the two close friend that I have made from this exchange, constantly misses them and wish to meet them as soon as possible. Our friendship was strong not because our personality or character clicks per se, but it is because our time spent together has tested us and there is nothing at all between us. Miss them.
July:
Spent the beginning of the month exploring Taiwan with Darren.
Spent the end of the month exploring Siem Reap with my mom. It was great time. Food was good, people were nice, Angkor Wat is lovely.
August:
Made two trips to Ipoh, one was food trip, another one was because Darren had dengue. Works part time in Sunway Lagoon, real part time, like just 3 days only. And also work part time in my primary school, 7 days only. Tried fishing and went for Bersih 4.0.
September:
New semester begins in USM. Went Langkawi with Zhuo Ting.
October:
Had fun over the weekend when dear came over to penang.
November:
Make a road trip to Hatyai and Krabi with my roommate, it was fun time.
December:
Nothing much. If there is anything worth highlighting would be made a new friend that adores me.
What have I learnt this year:
1) How heaven taste like and how hell taste like. Taiwan was heaven, Penang was hell. I wonder why so. Was it because one doesn't know how does bitter taste because he never tasted sweetness before? Or was it because I have explored finish Penang and Taiwan was a new thing to explore?
I loves Taiwan, the life there, the convenience and efficiency, everything was good and comfortable. Then I went to Cambodia, and taking there as comparison, I was grateful that I am Malaysian. But when I came to Penang, I just grow to hate this city and this country more and more. The efficiency of how we do things here really sucks, and sucks is really too mild a word to comprehend the deep shit hole we're living in where there is no efficiency but just stupidity. Just as people grow older seems to have more wisdom, some malaysians simply picked up idiocy and lost common sense along as they grow.
2) The hardest thing to invest is human relationship. As human is a complex being and very versatile, it requires much to keep it strong. Many of times people actually don't give a damn about anyone else except themselves, everyone, including me. So I have learnt not to give a single damn about others too. Through my lonely times in penang, I have grown to be very independent and do everything alone. Thus, between a human and a dog, I would prefer a dog ten times over.
3) I have cease to appreciate little things in my life. I notice this as I scroll though my dayre, I use to appreciate every single thing that makes me happy in my life, for life was real good, as Taiwan was heaven. But as I begin my days in Penang, I'm just dreading it and anticipating end of studies. It could be I have lost interest in what I'm studying also, if I have took Thai language, I would have had the motivation to study it every single day. I still appreciate little things like when I have nice food, example like chinese food for dinner in this exam period, I grins and celebrate a little during moments like those. Is just that those are the only times it seems.
4) Choose friends wisely. Some friends I thought that we could actually be lifelong friends are the very same people I'm avoiding now. One shouldn't get herself too close to anyone that is of negativity that it drains you. Flee away. Having no friend is better at times like this.
I guess I should stop here as of now, before I unravel more negative things I learnt in life such as the world is a cruel place and people are benefit seeking. Part and parcel of life aren't it? Guess I have learnt many negativity of the human nature rather than human beauty this year. Hope that it is not too bad in the year 2016.
Am still learning. Till then, peace out.
